prayers

Hello friends.  Today I have a heavy, heavy heart. I have been near tears all day and so I figured the best thing to do was to write.  When we lived in Rexburg there was a couple in our ward who had a little boy a few months older than Hudson.  When we moved into the ward the husband was the very first person to introduce himself to us, he excused his wife because she was at home with their brand new baby.  He was just beaming, you could tell how happy he was to be a brand new daddy.  I will never forget how incredibly proud he was to tell us all about his sweet wife, and their sweet baby.  We never really got to know this family very well, but I was always impressed with how happy they were, and how loving they were.

     Seven months ago their baby started having some really bad health issues, and finally after a long journey of multiple tests, medications, and even bone marrow transplants he was diagnosed with Evan's syndrome (this was last Wednesday).  They started a Facebook page for this precious little boy and I have been reading the updates about his condition and my heart breaks a little more each time I read it.  Yesterday he started a round of chemo, and also started having multiple brain bleeds.  They put him on some sedatives, and now, even after being off the sedatives he has not woken up.  The Doctors say that he will probably pass on sometime tonight or tomorrow.  I cannot imagine what they are going through right now, and I know that angels are in that room with this sweet little baby tonight, as well as his parents and other family members struggling through this.  My heart is aching for them.  Please keep this family in your prayers.  They need as much comfort and love as we can give them through our prayers.  

     Because of how emotional I am about this, I have really pondered my blessings today.  Here is a family who is going through the hardest thing you could go through in life.  I cannot imagine being in their place right now.  All afternoon I have been cuddling Hudson, giving him kisses and being so, so grateful for my sweet little man.  I couldn't wait for him to wake up from his nap simply so I could hold him and kiss him. I am so blessed to have such a sweet little boy, who loves me and just wants me to love him.  So often I tend to complain about being a mother, or I resent certain aspects of it.  So often I put Hudson aside in order to do other things, often things that aren't even a good use of my time.  I realized that my time with him is so precious. I have so many blessings in my life, and my family is my biggest one. 

       I guess in all the emotions I have felt for this sweet family, I have also seen how small the things I complain about really are.  So many people are going through so much right now, who am I to complain about things in my life that are very temporary? Who am I to agonize over the timings of things, or the way things have played out?  I have so, so much.  Most importantly I have the Gospel. With Christ, all things are possible, and all wounds are healed.  He truly carries us in the time of our deepest sorrows and pains.

       I am so grateful for the knowledge that families are eternal.  I have so much, God is good.  He loves us, and he will always be there for us.  It is such a strength to know that we have a loving Heavenly Father, and a loving Savior.  

     Please, please keep this family in your prayers as they face this struggle. To his family (I have tried to respect their privacy and not put in any names), I doubt you will ever read this post, but if by some off chance you ever do, please know that you are in my prayers and in my heart.  There are so many praying for you right now, and so much love is being sent your way.